Dear Me......

Thanks for the reality check.  You are right.  I am going to fix what is wrong with us.  It is up to me.  You can help me though, by keeping me motivate and pushing me to go just a little more and a little harder.  Right after my reality check, I went down to the gym while the little's were at nap time.  You realized that I have just about everything in there.  I have a treadmill, a stationary bike, a stair stepper, and elliptical, an abCoaster, a weight machine and a bunch of free weights and stretch bands.  I also have my P90x series somewhere.  I can do this. I really have no excuse.  I busted out a 30 minutes on the elliptical and my knee doesn't even hurt! (knock on wood) Are you proud of me?  I am setting some goals.  Here goes:

Lose 36 lbs in 6 months.  By June 1st (Dyllon's birthday)  I want to have the weight at a more healthy 130 lbs.  I also want to see if I can get off all my medications by this time.  I guess that we will have to see what the Dr says about that.

How is I going to accomplish this?  I am going to work out at least 5 times a week.  I do need to go longer than 30 minutes so I will see if Kendall would like to do some yoga tonight.

Eating.......this will be harder.  I need to get that cholesterol taken care of.  To do this I need to cut out all meats with the exception of chicken breast, turkey breast and fish.  I am going to eat mostly vegetarian which means a lot of plant based foods.  I am not going vegetarian just trying to eat better and lower the bad cholesterol.  Dairy, very little for me, but I am not such a big fan of dairy anyway. Also, I am going to cut out most sugars.  I say most because I am going to allow myself one treat a week.  When I say I can't have anything....this makes me crave it more.  I am also going to see if I can find a low cholesterol cookbook that can help me find things that are yummy to eat.

Lastly, I am going to try and get at least 12 glasses of water a day.

ME and Self, we can do this!

Dear Self......

I'm not well...........Don't you realize that what you do to me is not helping you?  You are UNHEALTHY!!!  Only you can fix me.  You have me weighing in at a staggering 166 lbs. You are only 5'2".  Holy Crap, you should lose at least 36 lbs girlfriend. Really, know wonder none of your clothes fix.  You know all the panic attacks that you have been having?  Don't you think that they just might be a warning sign that something bad is going to happen unless you take care of me better.  Your blood pressure is to HIGH!  Come on.....you take 2 pills just to try and lower me.  One of these pills cause you to panic and we all know how fun the panic attacks are.  You have to take a pill just to calm those little babies down.  Now, to make matter even worse......you get the call from the Dr. office that your Cholesterol is through the roof.  And they don't mean Party and raise your hands through the roof.  Just landed yourself on a cholesterol medication.  So lets take count of the pills now.  4 fish oil, 2 potassium, 2 blood pressure and one freak out pill.  Not to meant the acetaminophen or the stomach pills that you take often just to feel better.  Man self.....you are a freaking pharmacy!  Please help me!  Now you are being a cry baby as you type this because you realize how out of hand this has gotten.  How can you help me?  You have got to start eating better!  This not only means you!  If you are unhealthy so is your family....they eat the same things that you do.  You have got to exercise.  I know it hurts the knees, but guess what hurts less.....to be dead......is that really what you want?   A little pain and uncomfort never hurt anybody and there are ways to exercise that won't cause you pain!  JUST DO IT!  I dare you! So please make a plan and help me!  I cannot do it, I need you to do it for me.  I know it will be hard, but I will do it with you and it will totally be worth it!

Day 9

Hello.........Today when I weighed in I was 163.2  this is a .8lb loss.  This brings the total to 7.8 lbs.  I am not gonna lie.......Yesterday was super hard and it took a lot not to just give in and scrap the diet.  I hope that today is a better day.

Day 8

Weigh in today was a disappointing 164.0 lbs.  A gain of 1 lb over the weekend.  Weekends are so hard for me.  Today is a fresh start.  But lets look back at last week successes.  I did lose a total of 7 lbs last week.  YES!!!!  Go me!  Let's see if I can get that going again this week.  I vow to do good again!

Day 7

I don't want to talk about what happened today.....lets just say that I know that I will do better tomorrow.

Day 6

Weigh in was at 163.0 lbs. I was down another 1.2 lbs.  YES!!!! Even after eating out yesterday!  This brings the total down to 8 lbs.

Day 5

Weigh in 164.2, down another .8 lbs. making a total of 6.8 lbs total Yipee!  Today was a busy day, I had breakfast/lunch with my sister and two friends.  We had an awesome time.  I was able to find something that I could eat at Village Inn.
I had 2 egg whites and a fruit cup.  I have no idea on the calories, but I know that it fit with the diet.  For dinner I had a taco salad.

Day four

Good morning.  I am still hanging in there.  This morning I weighed in at 165.0 lbs.  This is another 1 lb loss, bringing my total to 6 lbs.  YES!  Today I am sore, everywhere.  Doing my 5k training last night really did a number on me.  See you later when it is meal time.

For lunch I made grilled salmon with lemon with broccoli.  Um....Yum!

Salmon 130 cal
Broccoli 68 cal

Total calories so far today 198 and I am up to 90 oz water.

I was able to get my 25 minutes of exercise on during the little's nap time today.  It was good to get it done and out of the way.

Day 3

WooHoo, this morning I weighed in at 166.0 lb, a 2.4 lb loss.  This brings my total so far to 5 lbs!  I LIKE IT!!!!!  This morning however, I was not able to get up and exercise.  I had one of those nights last night that I could just not fall asleep.  I did the "if I fall asleep right now, I will get this many hours of sleep" all night.  I was still awake at 2:34 am.  I just could not drag myself up at 5:00 am.  I will either get my exercise in during the little's nap time of after dinner.

In other unrelated news my water cup has vanished.  I have been using the same 32 oz special edition Cowboys vs Aliens Slurpee cup all week.  Now one of my kids has stolen it!  I really like the cup, because I just have to fill and drink it 5 times during the day to get 150 oz.  Drinking 10 cups that are 16 oz feels like so much more water.  I hope that it turns up soon!

For lunch I have been really liking the salads lately.  I switched it up a little bit this time.

Chicken 3.5 oz  87 cal
Lettuce 3.5 oz   15 cal
Strawberries 50 cal
light raspberry dressing 2 tsp 30 cal

Total calories for the meal was 182 calories. So far I have choked down 80 oz of water, I am gonna need to get me some lemons and limes so I can change the taste of water if I am going to keep up on getting the right amount of water.


For dinner I went with the stand by again


Chicken 3.5 oz  87 cal
Lettuce 3.5 oz   15 cal
1/2 can mandarin oranges in orange juice 50 cal
baked won ton strips 35 cal
light asian dressing 2 tsp 30 cal

Total calories for the meal was 217 calories

Snack fruit and jello 55 cal

Total calories for the day was at 454 and water intake was 150 oz.  


I was able to fit my exercise in last night during the 1st part of American idol.  I was sad that nobody came in to keep me company or exercise with me. :0(

Day two

This morning I was able to again drag my butt out of bed and get on the treadmill at 5:07 AM! Ugh! How I do no like the wee hours of the morning.  Today on the schedule was 25 minutes of brisk walking on the treadmill.  CHECK.  After my brisk walk, I went again and laid on my bed until the little"s started to arrive at 7:20.  When I weighed in this morning I was at 168.4 lbs.  This shows a 2.6 lb loss from yesterday.  Hopefully, I can keep those numbers coming all week.  I will check in later at lunch time.

So far on the water  I have drank 90 oz.  For lunch I had some of my favorite foods, they really did not go together, but they were good.

Crab 80 cal
Broccoli  68 cal
1/2 grapefruit 40 cal

Calories so far today 188....looks like I MIGHT HAVE ROOM FOR A SNACK TONIGHT!

For dinner, I had kinda of a rushed affair.  I had a meeting that I had to go to, so I went ahead and had the mandarin chicken salad again.  Still yummy!  So dinner was 217 calories.  After my meeting I came home and had a apple for 72 calories and at the end of the day I had a sugar free jello for 5 calories.  This brings the total calories for the day to 482.  My water intake was 150 oz.

On a side note, I had (really I did) to make chocolate chip cookies today.  I did not even try the dough and I did not have a cookie.  They smelled amazing though!

Day one (again)

So far so good today.  This morning I got up at 5 o'clock in the AM (I must be CRAZY!) and started my 5k training.  Week one involves a 5 minute brisk walk and then 60 seconds running 90 seconds walking for 20 minutes.  This makes a total of 25 minutes.  Gonna take it easy on the exercise for the next 3 weeks because you are not supposed to do much on the HCG diet because you only consume around 500 calories.  I think that around a half hour a day should be okay as long as I take a vitamin b 12 drops before I exercise for energy.


So far, so good.  I have managed to drink around 90 oz of water and it is just about one pm.  On a side note,  I have had to visit the little girls room about 10 times already.  Geesh.. the water just runs right through me!

Eating:

For lunch today I had a Mandarin Chicken Salad.  It was yummy! I started cooking chicken in the crock pot about 8:30 am so it was nice and tender for my salad. (I cooked 6 meals worth of chicken) Here is the calorie breakdown:

Chicken 3.5 oz  87 cal
Lettuce 3.5 oz   15 cal
1/2 can mandarin oranges in orange juice 50 cal
baked won ton strips 35 cal
light asian dressing 2 tsp 30 cal

Total calories for the meal was 217 calories
Total tastiness of the meal Delicious!

So, for dinner I just went ahead and had the same thing that I had for lunch.  It was so tasty the 1st time and it was already cooked, I just had to assemble.  The second time did not disappoint at all.  Later in the evening I had a snack of some strawberries that had 50 cal.  So, my total calories for the day was 484 and my water intake was 150 oz.

I'd like to welcome myself back.......

Well, I find myself coming back to an old friend, or should I say foe? Either way, I am back. Why do I struggle with my weight? Anyway.........AUGH!!!!!! Okay, I am going to try the HCG diet once again. I had great sucess about 2 years ago, so here we go. Lets just say that I hope I have better success at the HCG diet then getting up at 5:30 am and running. Starting weight 171.0lbs Oh my heck, did I just actually post that number? Yikes! Pretend that you did not see it or that it is much lower. Okay? Okay! Goals: Lose 35 lbs and keep it off. Write in my food journal everyday. Drink at least 1 gallon of water per day. Rewards: 10 lbs - hair done, 20 lbs - pedicure 25 lbs- massage, and 30 lbs Shopping Spree. Sounds FUN! Okay, here we GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!